Still Dreamin'.....

Nah! i dnt think so.. i hate working, college was so much better. Now life has gotten so much more serious! boriiiing!!!! I have changed to 4 jobs in 1 and a half nd that surely is not a good sign. I still dont noe what i wanna do wit my life. I always wanted to do something great but as i kid i alwys thot that i wud'nt grow up to be 20 something, coz i thot the world wud end by then. Maybe had this idea coz my parents and grandparents always spoke the world comin to an end.

Anyway im 22 now and yea so much alive and i have no idea to what i wanna be. My dream was to be someone cool, make enough money to live in a cozy apartment in the suburbs or own a lovely penthouse(the one like rock in the movie 'the game plan') have huge glass windows where i could look out below at the fast cars moving about or juz lie down in the balcony and gaze at the sky and when i would come home after work chill wit my dog and make a nice cup of hot chocolate and workon my macbook.den later(once married) come home and be wid my hubby and have good evening together at home maybe like catch a flick or juz relax in a hot bath tub! sigh*... but yea im still dreamin.....

 I thot of being a hairstylist den or a makeup artist. Its so much fun to do that and i enjoy it to.You like have my own Beauty Salon. Ihad so many dream when it came to that. But my parents have other plans for me. So had to shrug the idea off.
My dad wants me to get into HR.(Human Resourse) He wants me to get a job where i would have a company car, company flat etc. Basically live at the company's cost totally. But i don't want that. I hate corporate lives. Its so boring! Dressing up formally Everyday to work with trousers and a shirt. No tattoo's on visible body parts, no funky hair colors,no piercing etc etc... That's not what i want, not that being a corporate person is fun, but's juz not the person i see myself to be.

I wanna live like a hippie. Like how they lived back in the 60's. So colorful so alive. They kinda lived like nomads. Always on the road. And maybe that's why i fell in love with a bad boy. Nothin abt him is great. He makes my world coloful and bright. He's not like a typical hippie but i'd like to call him a 'Modern day Hippie'.He may be a good looker, kind at heart to but a total player and yea i'd say lives his life to the fullest. Love dosent matter much to him but i enjoy wen he'z around, cant even get him outta my head coz he's so much fun. For him it's all about living the moment..Roadtrips, go off the deep and do crazy shit. Trippy! yea tht's what he is.I've been with him for 4 yrs now and still am. We would never last but Im trying to enjoy till it lasts.